There has been major renovations taking place in my life. It seems that as my mind becomes de-fogged, I am decluttering other areas that have been neglected. Organization is something that has never really been one of my strengths. It seems that when I manage to keep up with one task, I fall behind in another. It can be very overwhelming, but lately I noticed that I not building with anxiety over the amount of unfinished work, but taking it one day at a time. If I don't accomplish all that I set out to do, there is always tomorrow. The important thing is that enjoy the present, and that I embrace the moment. That I can have unlimited amounts of time to enjoy my family, and everything else can sit on the back burner, atleast for awhile.
Monday, August 22, 2011
Friday, August 19, 2011
Day 14
Day 14 already. Unreal. I just threw my second challenge party last night with some great friends and family. We were on fire with making and tasting shake after shake. Among them our favorites chocolate peanut butter, cran-blueberry... and a few new ones. Cherry cheesecake, cafe mocha, orange dream. So so good.
I feel honoured to be promoting such an amazing product, and I am just so pleased with the results after just being on it for two weeks. I feel so balanced. My body was in such desperate need of proper nutrition, that I can already feel tremendous improvements in my cardiovascular health.
I read some shocking facts about the reality of obesity in the United States alone, that just blew my mind. 'That 200 million americans (2 out of 3 adults and 1 in 3 children) are overweight. If nothing changes within 10 years 42% of our population will be obese. This means that todays children could be the first generation to have a shorter life span than their parents. The cost of health care expenses for obesity is a more expensive health problem than smoking.' People are eating themselves to death.
I feel honoured to be promoting such an amazing product, and I am just so pleased with the results after just being on it for two weeks. I feel so balanced. My body was in such desperate need of proper nutrition, that I can already feel tremendous improvements in my cardiovascular health.
I read some shocking facts about the reality of obesity in the United States alone, that just blew my mind. 'That 200 million americans (2 out of 3 adults and 1 in 3 children) are overweight. If nothing changes within 10 years 42% of our population will be obese. This means that todays children could be the first generation to have a shorter life span than their parents. The cost of health care expenses for obesity is a more expensive health problem than smoking.' People are eating themselves to death.
Thursday, August 11, 2011
Day 6
7:20am I stayed up way too late last night, and I am paying for it today. I need to make sleep a priority in my 90 Day plan, because my body really needs that time to recover. My breakfast shake tates awesome this morning, especially after such an intense workout.
2:00pm I am feeling good, eating well, and almost on my way to a complete health transformation. I love the 'ViSalus' Shakes, and really look forward to them. It is amazing that only six days into the 90 Day Challenge, I am not craving sugar!! How is that possible? I'm not saying that I'm cured. That I'm over it, but it's a relief to not feel the intense withdrawl that I have felt in the past. The headaches, the weakness, the unbalanced sugar levels dropping taking my energy with it, the emotional roller coaster (angry, irritable, moody). The shakes have just made it so easy... and so wonderful. For me it feels like the difference between going grocery shopping with an empty stomache, and going shopping after having a meal.
11:00pm I got together with some family & friends this evening to share and sample shake recipes. What a fun filled evening of creativity. There are hundreds of variations, so many yummy recipes. Tonight we made German Chocolate cake, sex on the beach, Cran Blueberry, Banana Cream Pie, Chocolate Peanut Butter, and mixed berry. After all that tasting, it felt like I had just eaten a meal. So good.
2:00pm I am feeling good, eating well, and almost on my way to a complete health transformation. I love the 'ViSalus' Shakes, and really look forward to them. It is amazing that only six days into the 90 Day Challenge, I am not craving sugar!! How is that possible? I'm not saying that I'm cured. That I'm over it, but it's a relief to not feel the intense withdrawl that I have felt in the past. The headaches, the weakness, the unbalanced sugar levels dropping taking my energy with it, the emotional roller coaster (angry, irritable, moody). The shakes have just made it so easy... and so wonderful. For me it feels like the difference between going grocery shopping with an empty stomache, and going shopping after having a meal.
11:00pm I got together with some family & friends this evening to share and sample shake recipes. What a fun filled evening of creativity. There are hundreds of variations, so many yummy recipes. Tonight we made German Chocolate cake, sex on the beach, Cran Blueberry, Banana Cream Pie, Chocolate Peanut Butter, and mixed berry. After all that tasting, it felt like I had just eaten a meal. So good.
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
day 5
12:00pm This morning it was hard to pull myself out of bed for an intense work out at six o' clock in the morning, but I knew that once I got started it would pay off. I did it, and I feel like that is a tremendous accomplishment.
Also, I was listening to a few other people talk about their own experiences with the Body By Vi Challenge and one mentioned that she doesn't eat chocolate icecream or drink coffee anymore, that she doesn't crave them. The funny thing is... Neither do I!!! No way could it be that easy. No way!! I would know, I am former sugar addict remember, and I can't tell you how many times I have tried to give it up. But let me tell you, from my experience and being on the challenge now for 5 days... I feel satisfied. My sugar levels aren't spontaneously dropping, where I would need to binge on ice cream or a handful of cookies to spike it back up. My energy level never seizes where I feel like I need that coffee to wake me up. I am completely satisfied... all day long.
So what is the the 90 Day Challenge all about? The Body by Vi™ Challenge is not another fad diet. The program is based on nutrition that helps you burn fat and keep lean muscle, boosts your metabolism and helps control hunger. THIS ISN'T A PROGRAM ONLY FOR PEOPLE TRYING TO LOSE WEIGHT! It's for anyone who's sick of feeling tired and having no energy because they don't have the time or money to make three nutritious meals every single day!
Also, I was listening to a few other people talk about their own experiences with the Body By Vi Challenge and one mentioned that she doesn't eat chocolate icecream or drink coffee anymore, that she doesn't crave them. The funny thing is... Neither do I!!! No way could it be that easy. No way!! I would know, I am former sugar addict remember, and I can't tell you how many times I have tried to give it up. But let me tell you, from my experience and being on the challenge now for 5 days... I feel satisfied. My sugar levels aren't spontaneously dropping, where I would need to binge on ice cream or a handful of cookies to spike it back up. My energy level never seizes where I feel like I need that coffee to wake me up. I am completely satisfied... all day long.
So what is the the 90 Day Challenge all about? The Body by Vi™ Challenge is not another fad diet. The program is based on nutrition that helps you burn fat and keep lean muscle, boosts your metabolism and helps control hunger. THIS ISN'T A PROGRAM ONLY FOR PEOPLE TRYING TO LOSE WEIGHT! It's for anyone who's sick of feeling tired and having no energy because they don't have the time or money to make three nutritious meals every single day!
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
Day 4
7:20pm What a busy day! Finally I feel like I have the energy to make it through the day without the aid of sugar and caffiene. In a way I feel free... like I am the one in control now, and I choose to make my own destiny. I am challenging myself in ways that I never thought possible. The key is to stay positive throughout this whole process. After all this is a 90 Day challenge, so I might as well make the most of it!
Day 3
I am proud to say that I am making progress. I have been eating well, sticking to my fitness routine and drinking the 'ViSalus' Shakes every morning, along with the multi vitamins. I feel great!!! Matter of fact, keep in mind, that I have aloud myself atleast one cup of coffee a day, and I haven't had one. I just never really thought of it. First thing in the morning I have my shake, and I'm ready to go!!!
What I like about the shakes is that you can get creative and make them your own. Each day is a new experience, and it's exciting to try a new kind.
I've tried Berry, Banana cream pie, Chocolate Penut butter (tates like a reese's pieces treat), Orange creamcycle, Orange blueberry, and this morning I am tryig Peach. The possibilites are endless.
What I like about the shakes is that you can get creative and make them your own. Each day is a new experience, and it's exciting to try a new kind.
I've tried Berry, Banana cream pie, Chocolate Penut butter (tates like a reese's pieces treat), Orange creamcycle, Orange blueberry, and this morning I am tryig Peach. The possibilites are endless.
Sunday, August 7, 2011
Day 2
11:05am Yesterday was a really busy day, so I didn't really have time to blog, with it being my birthday and all. I had energy from the get go, and for the first time in a long time I never felt the afternoon crash... period. Perhaps, it's the whole routine together as a unit.
1. I ate healthy well balanced meals
2. I began the day early with a fitness workout
3. I began my 90-Day Challenge using 'ViSalus' health & fitness products
I just finished my first workout with Turbo Fire and let me tell you I worked it hard. I assumed that it would start out easy for beginners but I was sweating seconds after starting to warm-up. I can't wait to see where I will be 90 days from now. I committed to my journey on my birthday, so let's just say it will be a birthday I will never forget. Not to mention, with the ViSalus social network, I am able to connect with people from all over the world who are also taking the 90 Day Challenge. In fact, someone from Florida pushed their challenge start date one day later, just so we could start on the same day and encourage each other all the way through. Imagine what accountibility that gives you. Not only is it encouraging to connect with others, but inspiring. I didn't have a fitness plan... I planned to eat healthier, give up sugar, use 'ViSalus' products and as I mentioned earlier stay active. Notice that I did not mention exercise... but thanks to someone in Florida, I am taking it to the next level. I am in it to win it!!!
1. I ate healthy well balanced meals
2. I began the day early with a fitness workout
3. I began my 90-Day Challenge using 'ViSalus' health & fitness products
I just finished my first workout with Turbo Fire and let me tell you I worked it hard. I assumed that it would start out easy for beginners but I was sweating seconds after starting to warm-up. I can't wait to see where I will be 90 days from now. I committed to my journey on my birthday, so let's just say it will be a birthday I will never forget. Not to mention, with the ViSalus social network, I am able to connect with people from all over the world who are also taking the 90 Day Challenge. In fact, someone from Florida pushed their challenge start date one day later, just so we could start on the same day and encourage each other all the way through. Imagine what accountibility that gives you. Not only is it encouraging to connect with others, but inspiring. I didn't have a fitness plan... I planned to eat healthier, give up sugar, use 'ViSalus' products and as I mentioned earlier stay active. Notice that I did not mention exercise... but thanks to someone in Florida, I am taking it to the next level. I am in it to win it!!!
Saturday, August 6, 2011
Day 1
7:00am It's the first day of my body By Vi Challenge, and the excitement woke me up just after 6am this morning. The berry shake I am having for breakfast tastes amazing, I'm already half way through it and feeling satisfied. I made a last minute decision to incorporate a fitness plan into my 90 days, and well it just happens to be a 90 day program. As I blog about the challenge, I will also be blogging about my fitness program 'P90x-Turbo Fire' because well... it just so happens that I'm not really one that likes to excerise. Don't get me wrong, I live a very active life, I walk pretty much everywhere, but as for doing crunches or push ups or anything that takes effort.... I avoid on purpose. Turbo Fire is intense cardio/dancing, so I'm just going to have fun with it!! Seeing as how I won't be picking up my program until tonight, this morning I will be subsituting it with 'Billy Blanks'. Wish me luck.
8:00am Tae-bo gave me that early morning kick in the butt. I did it!! I set that time for myself, and I committed to it. For my first real cardio work out, I wasn't too bad... I expect that soon I will become more co-ordinated, and not so much resemble Mowgli from the jungle book with scrawny little arms and legs shooting jabs every which way... but hey, it's a work in progress.
After my work out I tried 'Neuro', a ViSalus energy drink. Really tastey... probably taste even better with ice cold water, but it's energizing and refreshing nevertheless.
8:00am Tae-bo gave me that early morning kick in the butt. I did it!! I set that time for myself, and I committed to it. For my first real cardio work out, I wasn't too bad... I expect that soon I will become more co-ordinated, and not so much resemble Mowgli from the jungle book with scrawny little arms and legs shooting jabs every which way... but hey, it's a work in progress.
After my work out I tried 'Neuro', a ViSalus energy drink. Really tastey... probably taste even better with ice cold water, but it's energizing and refreshing nevertheless.
The Body By Vi Challenge begins!!!!!
Finally the journey I have been long awaiting for begins!! 90 Days to better health, fitness and adventure!!!!
Friday, August 5, 2011
1 Day to go
8:00am This morning I feel extremely vulnerable as mixed feelings begin to surface. As someone who has used food to heal emotional wounds I feel like I am tight rope walking without a safety net. Who knew that food could have that much power?? Breaking the pattern of emotional eating will be one step forward I can't wait to take.
Thursday, August 4, 2011
2 Days to go
9:30am This morning I did not want to get out of bed, serves me right for staying up past midnight. In my desperate need for coffee, the first cup completely drained out when I realized that I had forgotten to place a mug underneath. I can't tell you how disappointed I was, that stuff is like liquid gold.
A few friends of mine will be joining me in the 90 day challenge, and that is just so exciting. Not only is it great that we together are committing to 90 Days to a healthier life style, but 'multiple studies have shown that people are more successful in acheiving their health & fitness goals when they strive to acheive them with others as a means of support and accountability.' I have tried countless times to eat healthier as a new years resolution, only to end up with the same discouraging results, therefore going back to my old habits within a few days. So what's so different this time around? This time I am not alone. I have a whole team of support, even people I don't personally know, cheering me on.
Blogging about my experience is way for me to chart my progress, and focus on the positive rather than the negative. I expect that it may get worse before it gets better as I withdrawl and go through cravings. I noticed something last night that I had never really given any thought, until now. Shortly after dinner hour last night I began to get this pulsing headache. Usually I get them coincidently on days that I don't drink coffee or consume enough sugar, but almost instinctively I went into the freezer and ate a scoop of ice cream.
So let's get this straight...
1. Lack of sugar
2. Withdrawl
3. Another dose of sugar
I used ice cream as a way to medicate myself to feel better again!! This my friends, is what you call and addict. Some people may not believe that one could be addicted to sugar, but I am living proof and my testimony states otherwise.
What I write about are 'confessions of a sugar addict.'
5:30pm I ate sensibly today. Not fantastic, but not horrible either. I definetely have a strong preference for fruit over vegetables, so I need to make veggies more of a priority as well, considering you can still eat too much fruit. When I was pregnant with Becca, my doctor actually told me that I needed to eat less fruit, and that I needed to dilute my juice by half with water, as I was at high risk of gestational diabetes.
I read labels today, and I have never really cared so much before what I put in my mouth... it was educating to be aware and compare. For example:
Strawberry yogurt vs. Plain yogurt - 1/2Cup serving
_____________________________________________________
Calories 140 - 60
Fat 2g - 1g
Cholesterol 10mg - 5mg
Sugar 21g - 4g
I'm sure you get the point. Look at the difference, just in sugar! So today I became aware and compared not just the nutritional value but also the ingredients. I opted for plain yogurt today, and added frozen blueberries. The tartness of the yogurt tasted great with the fruit. I actually enjoyed it more and felt satisfied after eating.
A few friends of mine will be joining me in the 90 day challenge, and that is just so exciting. Not only is it great that we together are committing to 90 Days to a healthier life style, but 'multiple studies have shown that people are more successful in acheiving their health & fitness goals when they strive to acheive them with others as a means of support and accountability.' I have tried countless times to eat healthier as a new years resolution, only to end up with the same discouraging results, therefore going back to my old habits within a few days. So what's so different this time around? This time I am not alone. I have a whole team of support, even people I don't personally know, cheering me on.
Blogging about my experience is way for me to chart my progress, and focus on the positive rather than the negative. I expect that it may get worse before it gets better as I withdrawl and go through cravings. I noticed something last night that I had never really given any thought, until now. Shortly after dinner hour last night I began to get this pulsing headache. Usually I get them coincidently on days that I don't drink coffee or consume enough sugar, but almost instinctively I went into the freezer and ate a scoop of ice cream.
So let's get this straight...
1. Lack of sugar
2. Withdrawl
3. Another dose of sugar
I used ice cream as a way to medicate myself to feel better again!! This my friends, is what you call and addict. Some people may not believe that one could be addicted to sugar, but I am living proof and my testimony states otherwise.
What I write about are 'confessions of a sugar addict.'
5:30pm I ate sensibly today. Not fantastic, but not horrible either. I definetely have a strong preference for fruit over vegetables, so I need to make veggies more of a priority as well, considering you can still eat too much fruit. When I was pregnant with Becca, my doctor actually told me that I needed to eat less fruit, and that I needed to dilute my juice by half with water, as I was at high risk of gestational diabetes.
I read labels today, and I have never really cared so much before what I put in my mouth... it was educating to be aware and compare. For example:
Strawberry yogurt vs. Plain yogurt - 1/2Cup serving
_____________________________________________________
Calories 140 - 60
Fat 2g - 1g
Cholesterol 10mg - 5mg
Sugar 21g - 4g
I'm sure you get the point. Look at the difference, just in sugar! So today I became aware and compared not just the nutritional value but also the ingredients. I opted for plain yogurt today, and added frozen blueberries. The tartness of the yogurt tasted great with the fruit. I actually enjoyed it more and felt satisfied after eating.
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
3 Days to go
1:05pm An active morning even though I was running completely on carbs and lots of sugar. I loaded up the wagon, and took the kids to the park for a picnic... that's pulling behind me 90lbs. with all three kids, plus the weight of the wagon. Not to mention, carrying the cooler bag and bag of sand toys over each shoulder. The physical demands can be challenging, especially when it comes to a day full of activities that will keep 3-5 children all under the age of 4 busy. So it has become habit to dose myself every couple of hours with sugar, to keep the energy going.
The bread & pasta have caught up with me. Bagel for breakfast, spaghetti and garlic bread for lunch... and lets not forget the timbits. A treat brought to daycare, that I enjoy as much as the kids. A little too much.
3:30pm So what exactly am I committing myself to? It's more than just the challenge of using the Visalus products for 90 days and expecting to see results. I want to see transformation in my eating habits as well. Why take this wonderful nutritious shake and keep eating crap, wouldn't that kind of defeat the purpose? I need to feel the difference in the most natural way, and because I have used sugar for so long to bring my energy level up from 0 to 10, I would need to eliminate it entirely. Please note, that this is my personal challenge, and it's main purpose is to break the cycle of sugar addiction and get energy to lead a healthier more fit life style. It is tailored to suit my needs and my own personal goals.
5:30pm My transformation kit just arrived today!!! I am very excited to start my 90-Day challenge, but like I mentioned earlier, my birthday seemed like a great time to start a resolution. A friend of mine asked the other day, 'Why your birthday? Why not the day after?' I guess I would just like to start my day with a bang, and feel good from the get go. Although, I will have to have a piece of cake of course, after all it is my birthday... and I specifically requested.. wait... wait for it.... icecream cake. Imagine that.
So 'Day 1' will be somewhat flexible, but in the days that follow I will get to it. My goals for the next 90 Days:
1. No sugar (specifically anything unnatural, so this does not include fruit. So no icecream, cake, cookies, chocolate, candy, pop etc.)
2. No more than 1 cup of coffee per/day (it was just a few short months ago I used to drink almost 8 cups, so this is a big one)
3. No alcoholic beverages
4. Keep active
5. More importantly I would like to educate myself on proper nutrition, learn how to plan and prepare healthy meals and say good-bye to processed food.
I realize that these goals may not seem like much now, but I know once I start it will be rough, and I will just have keep going no matter what. Take it one day at a time.
8:50pm I went to the grocery store this evening by bicyle. Something I've started doing these last few weeks. Matter of fact when I started, it almost felt like I had to learn how to ride all over again... it's been that long. So after a few shakey corners, I think I've got it mastered.
While at the grocery store I found myself really paying attention to the people around me. Normally I walk around in a daze, just going about my business, but tonight I felt different. I felt good. I made eye contact with everyone I passed, smiled, and they smiled back. I walked the ailes of the store feeling on top of the world, like a had something special... that I just haven't found yet.
The bread & pasta have caught up with me. Bagel for breakfast, spaghetti and garlic bread for lunch... and lets not forget the timbits. A treat brought to daycare, that I enjoy as much as the kids. A little too much.
3:30pm So what exactly am I committing myself to? It's more than just the challenge of using the Visalus products for 90 days and expecting to see results. I want to see transformation in my eating habits as well. Why take this wonderful nutritious shake and keep eating crap, wouldn't that kind of defeat the purpose? I need to feel the difference in the most natural way, and because I have used sugar for so long to bring my energy level up from 0 to 10, I would need to eliminate it entirely. Please note, that this is my personal challenge, and it's main purpose is to break the cycle of sugar addiction and get energy to lead a healthier more fit life style. It is tailored to suit my needs and my own personal goals.
5:30pm My transformation kit just arrived today!!! I am very excited to start my 90-Day challenge, but like I mentioned earlier, my birthday seemed like a great time to start a resolution. A friend of mine asked the other day, 'Why your birthday? Why not the day after?' I guess I would just like to start my day with a bang, and feel good from the get go. Although, I will have to have a piece of cake of course, after all it is my birthday... and I specifically requested.. wait... wait for it.... icecream cake. Imagine that.
So 'Day 1' will be somewhat flexible, but in the days that follow I will get to it. My goals for the next 90 Days:
1. No sugar (specifically anything unnatural, so this does not include fruit. So no icecream, cake, cookies, chocolate, candy, pop etc.)
2. No more than 1 cup of coffee per/day (it was just a few short months ago I used to drink almost 8 cups, so this is a big one)
3. No alcoholic beverages
4. Keep active
5. More importantly I would like to educate myself on proper nutrition, learn how to plan and prepare healthy meals and say good-bye to processed food.
I realize that these goals may not seem like much now, but I know once I start it will be rough, and I will just have keep going no matter what. Take it one day at a time.
8:50pm I went to the grocery store this evening by bicyle. Something I've started doing these last few weeks. Matter of fact when I started, it almost felt like I had to learn how to ride all over again... it's been that long. So after a few shakey corners, I think I've got it mastered.
While at the grocery store I found myself really paying attention to the people around me. Normally I walk around in a daze, just going about my business, but tonight I felt different. I felt good. I made eye contact with everyone I passed, smiled, and they smiled back. I walked the ailes of the store feeling on top of the world, like a had something special... that I just haven't found yet.
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
4 days to go
12:30pm I would consider myself a high energy individual, which really sounds contradictory to the purpose of my journey. That I am in this challenge to get my energy back, lead a healthier and more fit lifestyle. Fitness & health have never been a priority in my life, so when I blog about feeling depleted of energy, it is because the energy I have is synthetic. Chemically induced and unnatural.
I have always worked high energy jobs, multi-tasking, go go go GO!!!!
To give you insight on my personality, I work well at these jobs because that is how my mind works. Imagine working a job that provides such an adrenalyn rush... where your mind has to be in so many places at once. My jobs to date have been mostly working in restaurants as a 'server', so when I think back now, I can see why I got restless working in retail. I was fine working customer service, and in store recovery but as soon as they stuck me into the fitting room area, I needed out. It was like a prison cell. I hated that there wasn't enough urgence, no need, no fast pace. All I had were my own thoughts bouncing around endless corners of my mind. I felt like I was going nuts. It's no wonder why I find my home daycare so satisfying. There is always something to do, and my mind is always doing two things at once.
It is my strength, but also my weakness as well. At home I have a hard time focusing and completing tasks. There are always clothes that I have forgotten in the washing machine, cupboard doors/drawers that I may have left open, consistently I forget and misplace things. I do so in my need to multi-task, moving from one thing to the next in a mindless bid to get things done but it seems to be taking on a reverse effect.
This energy... this go go go, forgetful, mind bouncing, task juggling behavior may be a side effect of something greater. Think about that for a moment. Is it possible that what I eat may be affecting other areas of my life, causing a snowball effect. It builds, builds and builds and suddenly you don't know exactly how it got to be so big, so quickly.
I don't feel like I need to defend my challenge in anyway. The results will speak for it's self. If I could commit atleast 90 days to my health... 90 days!! That's not even 1/3 of an entire pregnancy. It's funny how most would do it in a heart beat for a baby, but why not for yourself?
I want my energy to come from being healthy, eating the right foods, and taking care of my body. Not from chemical or processed foods that toss my energy back and forth between feeling good and feeling like crap. I need some balance in my life.
9:30pm I took the advice of friend and raided my cupboards today with Dave, and together we got rid of all the lolipops, and chocolate left over from Easter. It was an emergency stash, kind of like a security blanket, if I got desperate. I am glad it's gone, one less temptation to worry about.
It was a good day as far as not snacking the entire day. I came up with a system to curb the hunger or boredom, whichever it is that makes me feel like a bottomless pit. This morning I washed a bowl of grapes that I kept out on the counter along with a large glass of water. Each time I found myself at the fridge, I drank a glass of water and ate one grape. Going through the motion of chewing on the grape seemed to work, atleast for today.
P.S
It it is 9:35pm... and I did not eat any icecream today.
I have always worked high energy jobs, multi-tasking, go go go GO!!!!
To give you insight on my personality, I work well at these jobs because that is how my mind works. Imagine working a job that provides such an adrenalyn rush... where your mind has to be in so many places at once. My jobs to date have been mostly working in restaurants as a 'server', so when I think back now, I can see why I got restless working in retail. I was fine working customer service, and in store recovery but as soon as they stuck me into the fitting room area, I needed out. It was like a prison cell. I hated that there wasn't enough urgence, no need, no fast pace. All I had were my own thoughts bouncing around endless corners of my mind. I felt like I was going nuts. It's no wonder why I find my home daycare so satisfying. There is always something to do, and my mind is always doing two things at once.
It is my strength, but also my weakness as well. At home I have a hard time focusing and completing tasks. There are always clothes that I have forgotten in the washing machine, cupboard doors/drawers that I may have left open, consistently I forget and misplace things. I do so in my need to multi-task, moving from one thing to the next in a mindless bid to get things done but it seems to be taking on a reverse effect.
This energy... this go go go, forgetful, mind bouncing, task juggling behavior may be a side effect of something greater. Think about that for a moment. Is it possible that what I eat may be affecting other areas of my life, causing a snowball effect. It builds, builds and builds and suddenly you don't know exactly how it got to be so big, so quickly.
I don't feel like I need to defend my challenge in anyway. The results will speak for it's self. If I could commit atleast 90 days to my health... 90 days!! That's not even 1/3 of an entire pregnancy. It's funny how most would do it in a heart beat for a baby, but why not for yourself?
I want my energy to come from being healthy, eating the right foods, and taking care of my body. Not from chemical or processed foods that toss my energy back and forth between feeling good and feeling like crap. I need some balance in my life.
9:30pm I took the advice of friend and raided my cupboards today with Dave, and together we got rid of all the lolipops, and chocolate left over from Easter. It was an emergency stash, kind of like a security blanket, if I got desperate. I am glad it's gone, one less temptation to worry about.
It was a good day as far as not snacking the entire day. I came up with a system to curb the hunger or boredom, whichever it is that makes me feel like a bottomless pit. This morning I washed a bowl of grapes that I kept out on the counter along with a large glass of water. Each time I found myself at the fridge, I drank a glass of water and ate one grape. Going through the motion of chewing on the grape seemed to work, atleast for today.
P.S
It it is 9:35pm... and I did not eat any icecream today.
Monday, August 1, 2011
5 days to go
9:00am The battle of wills. I caved to the ice cream just after 9pm last night. When it's gone, it's gone... I am done with the self torture. It's one thing to look away while shopping in the grocery store... but when it calls out from your own freezer?? Well that's just unfair.
I woke up this morning cranky and exhausted at a quarter to eight. I feel like going back to sleep, but I know once I chug that first cup of coffee, I will be raring to go. Speaking of coffee... I think that is what I will do right now.
Oh, but before that I must warn you... If you wake up feeling cranky and tired, do not, I repeat DO NOT eat a bagel. Or you will feel cranky, tired and bloated. They weren't kidding when they say 1 bagel= 5 slices of bread.
6:00pm I am feeling so tired that I could easily go to bed right now for the night. Becca wanted to watch a movie, and so I passed out for a little more than an hour. I feel worse now than what I did before falling asleep.
This afternoon when I felt the crash coming on, I thought it might be best to get outdoors. So I packed some fruit, crackers, cheese, a picnic blanket, and took Becca down to the park. We stayed for the afternoon public swim at the pool, and now let me tell you I am beat. It probably didn't help that I went to the corner store with Becca for the purpose of buying some coffee cups and ended up leaving with cold treats and a lotto ticket. My brain is in a fog... I want my coffee.
I woke up this morning cranky and exhausted at a quarter to eight. I feel like going back to sleep, but I know once I chug that first cup of coffee, I will be raring to go. Speaking of coffee... I think that is what I will do right now.
Oh, but before that I must warn you... If you wake up feeling cranky and tired, do not, I repeat DO NOT eat a bagel. Or you will feel cranky, tired and bloated. They weren't kidding when they say 1 bagel= 5 slices of bread.
6:00pm I am feeling so tired that I could easily go to bed right now for the night. Becca wanted to watch a movie, and so I passed out for a little more than an hour. I feel worse now than what I did before falling asleep.
This afternoon when I felt the crash coming on, I thought it might be best to get outdoors. So I packed some fruit, crackers, cheese, a picnic blanket, and took Becca down to the park. We stayed for the afternoon public swim at the pool, and now let me tell you I am beat. It probably didn't help that I went to the corner store with Becca for the purpose of buying some coffee cups and ended up leaving with cold treats and a lotto ticket. My brain is in a fog... I want my coffee.
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