I neglected to mention that we went to a BBQ last night, and I had my first taste of nutrition... after eating my second hamburger of the day, I ate grilled veggies and some fruit. After politely declining cake for dessert, I caved when Dave insisted that it was 'The best cake he had ever tasted'. So much for self control.
Regardless, this morning I woke up feeling hungover without having a drop of alcohol. Perhaps... one could over dose on food?
10:00am My back woke me up this morning. I can't tell if the pain is the result of:
A. My mattress
B. My footwear
C. Not taking care of my body
or
D. None of the above
However the cause... it is a royal pain. Literally.
This morning I had my cup of coffee and a bowl of 'Toasted O's', after eating half the bowl I remembered why I prefered fruit loops over the taste of cardboard.
It has taken everything in my power not to mow down on my secret stash of sour candies and dip into the icecream, but I'm sure that will come later.
The stashes have to go. Any takers?
I have enough lolipops in my cupboard to cover next Halloween I'm sure.
12:15pm I just called my sister Leighann, who just recently started the 90 day challenge herself. It's a good feeling to share the journey to a healthier life style with your loved ones and a real great source of support. All morning I have been on the phone, calling my parents, my sisters, all of whom have already started or will be starting. I am super excited about my new beginning, but I feel like using my birthday as sort of a hallmark of my journey seemed like a great idea. Plus I wanted to give my followers insight of my pre-challenge just to see how I struggle day to day with food.
I realized today by 11:30am that I needed to get groceries, suddenly by body felt hungry in a not so great way. I just had this conversation with my sister when she told me, 'Don't wait until you are hungry before you decide what you are going to eat.' Great advice because I wanted food and I needed it now. 'What can I have that's quick?' I open the fridge and scan the shelves up and down. Then the freezer... 'There's icecream!!' No. Not for lunch. I reconsider.
Settled on chicken breast and whole strawberries, and nectarines. Not bad for a spur of the moment meal... but next time maybe it would be wise to plan ahead.
2:20pm It has taken everything in my power to stear clear of the kitchen. I am practically pacing the floors, opening and closing the fridge. I ate a yogurt, without paying any attention to eating it which is what happens more often than I thought. That is how the icecream always dissappears so quickly and I will deny it to the end, and swear that I wasn't the only one eating it... but now that I think about it, I do believe I may have miscalculated... Just a bit. It is habit. I go in, take a clean spoon, dig one scoop of icecream, eat it, then throw that spoon in the dishwasher. 20 minutes later, do the same thing. Followed by another and another. I didn't actually sit and eat a full bowl, I just ate the whole container one bite at a time. Today, I am trying to pay more attention, and I can tell you honestly, that I did not have any icecream today.
5:30pm I have not sat down at all today to eat a solid meal. I got thinking on my walk this evening, that everything I put into my mouth I did so standing up, walking around, or on the go. It seems today was made up of a series of snacks... mid afternoon I had a peanut butter and jam sandwich, a granola bar, and then stopped quickly at Harvey's this evening for an onion ring and diet pop. I wish I could say today was just a day I let things slide, but this is pretty average in comparison to any other day.
Sunday, July 31, 2011
Saturday, July 30, 2011
7 days to go
7 days to go until by Body By Vi Challenge begins. I am embarrassed to say that it is nearly ten in the morning on Saturday, I am still sitting in my pajamas and I have not yet brushed my teeth. Even more embarassed to admit that breakfast for me this morning was a cup of coffee and a bowl of ice cream. Yikes.
10:30pm A vicious cycle of crashing and then shocking my body back to life with another dose of sugar. I put my system in a coma by lunch hour with a big mac, fries, and pop... A whopping 900 calories just for the burger and fries. It's sick, really. I'm not surprised that by 1:00pm, I was ready for bed. I could not stop yawning... Aweful. To beat the heat we feasted on cold treats. Ate a huge Klondike icecream bar. Another 230 calories....
It's no wonder I feel so blah.
Let's review. Icecream, coffee, hamburger, fries, pop and more icecream. I feel sick just writing it, but atleast I admit; I have a problem.
10:30pm A vicious cycle of crashing and then shocking my body back to life with another dose of sugar. I put my system in a coma by lunch hour with a big mac, fries, and pop... A whopping 900 calories just for the burger and fries. It's sick, really. I'm not surprised that by 1:00pm, I was ready for bed. I could not stop yawning... Aweful. To beat the heat we feasted on cold treats. Ate a huge Klondike icecream bar. Another 230 calories....
It's no wonder I feel so blah.
Let's review. Icecream, coffee, hamburger, fries, pop and more icecream. I feel sick just writing it, but atleast I admit; I have a problem.
Body Bi Vi Challenge countdown
Greetings,
Allow me to introduce myself. My name is Michelle, I will be turning 27 in exactly one week from today. My inspiration for beginning this 90 day challenge is to challenge myself to overcome addiction and lead towards the start of a new life style. Let me begin by saying I am not in this challenge to lose weight. I am in this challenge because I have abused my body for more than half of my life because I could. I could eat what I wanted whenever I wanted and not gain a single pound. After giving birth to my daughter over four years ago, I weigh less than I did before having been pregnant. That being said, I am not healthy. Even though on the outside I appear to be a healthy young adult, inside I feel the ever so slightly building of an unhealthy body. This is my body for life. I only get one. So for my birthday this year, I will give myself what may be the transformation of a life time. Maybe even the best gift one could have.
I don't want to be this young, and feel like I have no energy when I should be at my prime. I don't want my addiction to sugar to rule my life forever. I don't want my habits today to become tomorrows problem.
I will continue to blog pre-challenge to give you a glimpse of how I go day to day without changing a thing. You will see the abuse first hand and see just how powerful it is. Food is like my drug. I use sugar as a means of getting high, and daily I have had to increase the amount just to achieve that feeling of satisfaction. I will be honest, and will only provide information that is true in my experience. Thank you for taking the time to read my journey and for supporting me in my challenge. The countdown begins, counting down to my challenge... 7 days.
Allow me to introduce myself. My name is Michelle, I will be turning 27 in exactly one week from today. My inspiration for beginning this 90 day challenge is to challenge myself to overcome addiction and lead towards the start of a new life style. Let me begin by saying I am not in this challenge to lose weight. I am in this challenge because I have abused my body for more than half of my life because I could. I could eat what I wanted whenever I wanted and not gain a single pound. After giving birth to my daughter over four years ago, I weigh less than I did before having been pregnant. That being said, I am not healthy. Even though on the outside I appear to be a healthy young adult, inside I feel the ever so slightly building of an unhealthy body. This is my body for life. I only get one. So for my birthday this year, I will give myself what may be the transformation of a life time. Maybe even the best gift one could have.
I don't want to be this young, and feel like I have no energy when I should be at my prime. I don't want my addiction to sugar to rule my life forever. I don't want my habits today to become tomorrows problem.
I will continue to blog pre-challenge to give you a glimpse of how I go day to day without changing a thing. You will see the abuse first hand and see just how powerful it is. Food is like my drug. I use sugar as a means of getting high, and daily I have had to increase the amount just to achieve that feeling of satisfaction. I will be honest, and will only provide information that is true in my experience. Thank you for taking the time to read my journey and for supporting me in my challenge. The countdown begins, counting down to my challenge... 7 days.
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